Monday, October 14, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 14

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 14: Family
October 14, 2013 ♥


Day 14. Family: What does you family look like now? Is it just yourself carrying your child’s heart in yours? Do you have other children? A partner? A pet? You may not have what society perceives as a family but we all know that just because you cannot see any children, that does not mean that they are not a part of your family.

I am blessed with loving parents, twin older brothers, and a little sister. They are my family. 

For this project, I decided to use this photo of a painting I got from Tiny Dream Shop. I saw it and right away knew I wanted it. It symbolizes myself and my two babies of Heaven. Butterflies symbolize new LIFE and they are very special to me, so the blue butterfly is for Luke and the pink butterfly is for Lily. They flutter about in my heart and life always.

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Sunday, October 13, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 13

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 13: Book
October 13, 2013 ♥


Day 13. Book: Have you read a book about grief that helped you immensely in your journey of grief? Please feel welcome to share the book and links to where it can be purchased so others can find it.

A book that I really like is "I Will Carry You" by Angie Smith. It is about the loss of her baby daughter, so I relate to a lot of her feelings. I enjoy her writing style and how she points back to the Lord always. I recommend this book for both those who've lost a child, as well as those who haven't. This book came out around Mother's Day 2010, just a couple months after I had Lily, so I read it at a really raw time in my life. I played the song that has the same title of this book, sung by Selah (Angie Smith's husband is in Selah) at Lily's Celebration of LIFE Service. It is one of my favorite songs of all time. 

Here is the song with a slideshow I put together:


You can purchase this book HERE.


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Saturday, October 12, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 12

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 12: Article
October 12, 2013 ♥


Day 12. Article: Have you read an article about grief that you would love to share with everyone? Maybe it is something from Still Standing Magazine or a blog post from your favorite blogger or writer. Please feel welcome to share who wrote the article and how the article resonated with you and also the direct link to the article if it is online.

This letter written by John Piper to a grieving mother who had a stillborn son has deeply impacted me. It so beautifully articulates so many things I've thought and felt about grief, love, and loss.

Here's a part of the letter that resonated with me:
"And amputation is a good analogy. Because unlike a bullet wound, when the amputation heals, the arm is still gone. So the hurt of grief is different from the hurt of other wounds. There is the pain of the severing, and then the relentless pain of the gone-ness. The countless might-have-beens. Those too hurt. Each new remembered one is a new blow on the tender place where the arm was. So grieving is like and unlike other pain."

This part too:
"But there is another way God is honored in our grieving. When we taste the loss so deeply because we loved so deeply and treasured God’s gift — and God in his gift — so passionately that the loss cuts the deeper and the longer, and yet in and through the depths and the lengths of sorrow we never let go of God, and feel him never letting go of us — in that longer sorrow he is also greatly honored, because the length of it reveals the magnitude of our sense of loss for which we do not forsake God. At every moment of the lengthening grief, we turn to him not away from him. And therefore the length of it is a way of showing him to be ever-present, enduringly sufficient."

Read the entire article HERE.

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Friday, October 11, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 11

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 11: Emotional Triggers
October 11, 2013 ♥


Day 11. Emotional Triggers: What triggers emotions associated with grief for you? Is it the weather? A scent? Photos? Places? Holidays? Words? Certain people?

What is a "trigger?" It's a moment, sight, sound, smell, taste, etc. that can bring the grief of losing a baby to the surface. 

For me, it is difficult to see pregnant women and new babies. It is also hard to see little children around the age Lily would be today. The month of March is a trigger for me because that is the time of year my daughter was born and died and the month of her Celebration of LIFE service and burial. Memories of my pregnancy can be triggers. The hardest triggers are the everyday moments where the weight of Lily's absence feels the heaviest. On holidays and special days of celebration, such as weddings. Should-have-been milestones that will never be reached are very hard.

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Thursday, October 10, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 10

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 10: Beliefs
October 10, 2013 ♥


Day 10. Beliefs: Do you have a certain belief about what happens to us after we die?

I believe in LIFE... I know that my Lily went straight from my womb to the arms of her loving Heavenly Father. I have the hope and assurance that I will see and hold her again on streets of gold. Butterflies are very special and symbolic to me because they symbolize new LIFE. My new LIFE in Christ. And it is because of Christ's sacrifice that Lily has eternal LIFE with Him. He brought new LIFE in me through her precious LIFE. I will life forever with her and Him. Thank You Jesus...

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Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 9

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 9: Music
October 9, 2013 ♥

Day 9. Music: This might be hard to capture in a photograph so why not post a youtube clip of a piece of music that reminds your of your baby. Why this piece of music?

There are many songs that remind me of Lily. For this project, I decided upon the five that I'd say remind me of her the most.

"Little One" describes my pregnancy journey perfectly. I first heard it when I was pregnant and I would just cry at the beauty of the song. I had an unplanned pregnancy at age 19/20. 


"Forever and a Day" by Jewel is one of my pregnancy favorites. I would listen to the "Lullaby" album all the time during my pregnancy and Lily would squirm around so much. This song so beautifully portrays the love I have for my sweet girl.

"Beauty Will Rise" is from the album that came after Steven Curtis Chapman lost his own daughter. My aunt gave it to me just two months after Lily passed away, for Mother's Day 2010. It has been such a huge part of my healing. This song perfectly captures my entire testimony of darkness to light. 


"I Will Carry You" has also meant a lot to me on my grief and healing journey. I actually first heard the song when I was still pregnant and had no idea Lily would die. But, then when she did, I remembered it and played it at her Celebration of LIFE service. The words are hauntingly beautiful. 


"Your Hands" was also played at Lily's Celebration of LIFE service. It reminds me of this bittersweet journey of loving Lily and how faithful God is through all the highs and lows of life.


To see all the songs that remind me of Lily click HERE.

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Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Capture Your Grief 2013-Day 8

CAPTURE YOUR GRIEF 2013 Photography Project 
Day 8: Colors
October 8, 2013 ♥


Day 8. Colors: What colors represent your baby? Why those colors?

The colors that remind me of Lily are pink, brown, and white. Throughout my pregnancy, my mom and I got so many pink and brown things for her. She wore a pink and brown outfit with a matching blanket when she was born and she was buried in a lovely pink and brown dress. I suppose any "girly" colors can remind me of her. She brought so much color to my world. Someone created this beautiful collage of words that describe my Lily girl as a gift.

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