Friday, July 8, 2011

Oh, His great faithfulness!

This morning, my mind goes back to August 2009, when I was pregnant and so afraid and unsure of how everything would work out. And My God spoke to my heart, 

Trust Me. Choose LIFE. I will provide all you need. I am your faithful Father, your Provider, your Sustainer. I'll give you the strength. 

And I had no idea at the time just how faithful He would prove to be. When He says something, He means it. I have never once gone hungry or needed something that He hasn't provided. 

He beckoned me to Him in my place of complete brokenness. Yet in that place of brokenness, He brought beauty, He breathed the air back into my lungs and cried LIVE!!

So, I surrendered my all...though I felt so weak, so small. Out of my heart came yes, yes. I believe.

And He gave me all I needed to choose life for my precious child. I am still amazed at the strength, grace, and peace He gave. To get through the pregnancy, to get through losing her after loving her so much. 

Obey Him. Seek Him. And you will find Him. 

"Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God."

Oh, how my heart just overflows with thankfulness and joy! He promised He would take care of everything, and He did. Not just giving me the strength I needed to choose life. Not just giving me what I needed when I lost Lily after loving her so much. He provided for the $20,000 worth of doctor and hospital bills. Just a year before having Lily, I no longer had health insurance, which felt like such a burden at the time. Let me tell you, God works all things together for good. He knows what He's doing. If I had insurance, I would owe thousands of dollars on my medical bills for what insurance wouldn't have covered. I had no idea how I'd pay for all of those expenses, yet I believed He would be faithful to provide that which He promised! I don't owe a penny on medical bills! After having Lily, my dad's insurance policy changed and now I'm back on it for a few more years. Oh, His perfect timing! I've been getting some dental work done, which would be so much more expensive without insurance. The hospital where I had Lily provided a free full autopsy for Lily...God knew I needed this to have peace.

He has been asking me to entrust this area of finances to Him for a long time. I am completely debt free! I had nearly $4,000 of student loans hanging over my head for three years and it felt like I wasn't getting anywhere because the interest kept accumulating. But, God was faithful to provide! Read the testimony of how He provided here. 

“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" -Matthew 7:9-11

Right now, I am in a place of waiting, trusting, and believing that God will provide the finances I need to attend Ellerslie this October. I look forward to sharing with you how He supernaturally provides!

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