Friday, January 27, 2012

Brings me back

I heard this song today. It brought my heart back to March 17, 2010. The day I was told I must leave the hospital without my baby. The day my world crumbled around me. I first heard it in the car-ride home from REX Hospital. When I should have had a precious new life beside me in the backseat, instead I sat in the front, empty car seat in the back, tear stains on my face, and this song playing.

The gifts lie in wait in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away



  1. Thoughts and prayers for you right now, Hannah Rose... You are your little ones are gems - treasured by the perfect Father, and forever held close in His heart and His hands... His fingerprints are obvious all over your life, and He has marvellous plans for your journey to impact others...

  2. Thanks for your comments on my blog. I watched your video for Lily at the bottom of your blog and it is beautiful and moving. My heart breaks for you and your husband. I hate that we share this feeling of loss.

    The song that reminds me of our Baby May is, "Already Gone," by Kelly Clarkson. It was very popular when we lost our baby and it, to me, seems like a song from Baby May to me. It was one of the first songs I hear after we discovered that we lost our baby.

    ((hugs)) to you.

  3. hi hannah. :)
    thank you so very much for your thoughtful words on my blog and for taking the time to read my story. i'm sure happy you found my blog - as i am sitting here in tears after just finishing the beautiful and touching video you shared at the bottom of your page. thank you for being so open and honest and not afraid to share your beautiful daughter with the world.
    i am so very sorry for your losses and am amazed at your strength and positivity.
    "i will carry you" is such a special song to me too.
    i wish you joy and peace in this long and crazy journey.
    i'm happy to follow in it <3
    have a wonderful weekend!!

  4. the video at the bottom of lily is so amazingly beautiful. i'm lost for words

  5. Hannah, Thank you much for your sweet comment on my blog. My heart goes out to you. A few weeks after we lost Cooper, I stumbled across your blog through Faces of Loss. I sat and read you blog for a while and just cried and now we have met through Morgan. A Godwink I believe. I have a song that reminds me so much of Cooper, "I Will Carry You" by Selah. I found it the day before Cooper's funeral. Anytime I'm having a bad day or feel the need to just feel close to him or God I'll play it.
    Thinking of you,

  6. Thank you so much for your sweet comment and giving me a link to your blog. You made my day. I am so sorry about Lily Katherine. I have had such a hard time lately. The pain feels raw and I feel like I am back at square one. Not quite sure why. Part of it might be the new year? Another year passing without my little guy here? I constantly have to remind myself I will see him again! It will be such a wonderful day when we are reunited with our little ones. God Bless you!

  7. Hello there! I am a new follower. I am a mother of loss too, and although I never lost a baby late in the game like you did, I still lost 3 babies to miscarriage, and it still hurts. I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I can't even imagine. This is a beautiful post, and I thank you for sharing it.

  8. Hey Hannah, I love Casting Crowns, as we played "Praise You in the Storm" at Layah's funeral. Remember, although you continue to live, and live with hope, many compare the loss of a child or a close loved one, as an amputee, living, yes, but changed forever. Lily and Layah have high expectations of us. We must make them proud, with our story-their story, to minister to others and share God's grace, unconditional love, forgivness, and His sacrifice-His son. There are not many days, when Layah doesnt cross my mind, but I will continue to remember, that we will be reunited, as all life is but a breath. Praying for your peace.


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