|A bright and beautiful butterfly to symbolize the bright |
and beautiful new beginnings the Lord has for us this year :)
This month, I will be starting a Post-Abortion Group Bible Study at a local Pregnancy Center. I pray the Lord reveals any hidden things buried in my heart that need to be brought to the surface. I want complete freedom and healing and I know that is what Jesus desires to give each of us.
I hope to get Lily's headstone ordered and placed this year! As I have written about before, this is very important to me. It is a beautiful way to honor her life and prove to the world, SHE WAS REAL AND IMPORTANT AND I LOVE HER!! I am just trying to find the place that will make her stone the exact way I want it for an affordable price. You know something I was thinking about...with the logic that some people use, since Lily never lived outside of my womb, she was not a real person. She was just a "fetus," or "tissue." Well, if that's all she was, then what exactly is buried at that cemetery in Virginia? Why does she have a name? Why am I getting a headstone as a memorial? I think it is just another testimony to the beauty of LIFE to have a headstone for her and to prove to the world that unborn babies are precious and valuable to God!
In May, I hope to make a trip to Tennessee to the National Memorial for the Unborn to have Luke's Remembrance Ceremony and place his name plate on the memorial wall, as well as place Lily's brick paver in the memorial garden there. I have been wanting to do this for over two years! On this trip, I will get to meet my amazing new friend, Brittany!
I have felt the Lord leading me for a while to get involved in a local Crisis Pregnancy Center, but it hasn't felt like the right time until now. This year, I will be pursuing that. I am not sure what I will be doing there, but I trust the Lord to open up the doors and reveal all the specifics.
I am also working on launching a new website that ministers to Post-Abortive men and women. It will be called "Be Their Voice." As of right now, it is set to go live on Luke's 4th Heaven Day - February 6th. I will be sharing stories of men and women who regret their abortions, ideas on how to honor and remember an aborted baby, and many Post-Abortion resources. I will also be sharing ideas on how to be the voice of aborted babies, by sharing our stories in different ways. I have done several hours of research myself and thought of different ideas, so why not organize it all in one place to bless others?! God is giving me a new vision for Post-Abortive ministry and cultivating different dreams in my heart. I am excited to see what He does!
I will be donating hospital comfort boxes to the hospital where Lily was born this year! This has been a long time coming. Since this is something I like to do in honor of Lily, I am also praying about something I can do in honor of Luke and all babies who have been aborted. Whatever it is will be a part of the new website. I hope to be able to make something to honor their lives for free to Post-Abortive men and women.
This year, I would love more opportunities to share my story and heart for unborn life and those affected by abortion and unplanned pregnancies...both in speaking and writing.
Of course, these are all my dreams and God may have different things in store. I trust that He knows what's best and His dreams for my life are better than my own. :) What I truly desire is to know Jesus more this year and to be faithful in whatever He asks of me.
It is always a little hard for me when one year ends and another begins...it just feels like I'm moving farther away from Lily and Luke. I know some people are so ready for the year their baby died to be over, but when 2010 ended, I remember how sad I felt. Because for the rest of my life, 2010 will be "Lily's year." And when it ended, it felt like I was moving away from her. It still feels that way with each new year that rolls around, just different.
Every year, I literally could never plan or predict how God is going to move. So, we will see what the "Reflections on 2013" post contains in 12 months from now! Jesus, this is all for You...so take my life and let it be all for Your glory!
What are you dreams for the new year? I pray we each fix our eyes upon Jesus and that He will accomplish His Kingdom work through us...
This is an excellent article called, "13 Questions for the New Year."
This week, I am on vacation with my family, staying at a cozy little log cabin. I am thankful for the time to think, pray and just be. It is a refreshing time. Happy New Year, friends! :)